Painting my nails and figuring out the meaning of life...

Catchy title, huh?

Well more so a fact than trying to be catchy or inspiring. I can't even decide on a color of nail polish though let alone make any life decisions. Now having stared at the screen for ten minutes I think I might have a small train of thought a 'chugging', get it? Train of thought? Ahahaha.

For those who were unfortunate enough to read the last post, which is now hidden deep in my dumb-ass abyss mind, you may have caught a trend of self loathing. I can't help it, I swing from thinking I am completely awesome, to perhaps thinking I should win dumb ass of the year award. I haven't decided which one is me, maybe a little of both? Ah who the hell cares as long as I'm not on America's Most Wanted.

This move to Louisiana has me excited, but it also brings up the memories of me being single in Louisiana...Hahahaha. That's all there is to say on that subject matter besides the fact that Louisiana men always think they like me until they realize I am just not their kinda girl. Take my 'Husband' for example. Man, I'm sure he was disappointed when I did not wear camo or act like a crafting, caring, amazing house wife. That's so laughable, my house keeping skills go right up there with a 19 year old frat boy.

I'm a music major, I can barely keep my music organized and now with my little butter bean around, I just make sure that she stays alive and that our house isn't bad enough to be condemned. I know, I have such high standards.  Anyways I guess I'm not talking about a raunchy dating scene (I mean come on guys I am still legally married) but it's the fact that being this ambiguous little creature in a place so heavily defined by its lifestyle...is just a little intimidating. On a bit of a side note, I really do have bad ju ju with men in that state, the first one who comes up to me...I will blurt out I'm married, have a crazy demonic toddler, and that I don't like hunting, if they haven't run by that point, I will.

I will now go pick a nail color and decide how to proceed with life. Ugh I feel like maybe the nail color will be the harder decision.